Monday, August 04, 2008

So confused, my heart's bruised. Was I ever loved by you?

One of the things I've learnt about myself recently is that I'm very needy when it comes to wanting reassurance from friends and family. I need to be told that I'm loved, that I'm doing ok, that I'm needed. I don't really know it that's a good thing or a bad thing.

On the one hand, I luckily have great friends who are constantly telling me that they love me, that I'm beautiful, that the world would be a sadder place without me. On the other hand, I know that I need to be finding my assurance not in other people, but in God, and my identity in him. Once again it comes down to the fact that I need to stop looking to other people to fulfill me, to tell me that I'm loved, and look to God.

God will never leave me, nor forsake me. God is always there. My identity is secure in God. I never have any need to doubt that God loves me. God sent his Son to die for me while I was still a sinner, that I might be adopted into his family, and never again have to doubt that am I loved.
I know that I don't remind myself of that enough, so I have a feeling that a fair few posts may turn out to be related to this topic as I try to work through stuff in my head.


kim* said...

It is hard sometimes to not trust God, that is a trial I think. I know I have failed many times in this department but I think the reassurance that your friends are giving you also shows that God wants us to have them and be appreciative of them and to go to Him and thank Him and trust in Him. I think he helps us to trust and thank Him more and if that reassurance in friends brings you close to Him then that is good news. right?

lovemaryxoxo said...

Your thought process is on the right track. You're a smart young woman.

Sometimes as humans we get used to "leaning upon our own understanding" when it comes to so many things, but as "all scripture is inspired and beneficial for teaching" (2 Tim 3:16) than looking to the Bible and realizing just how much love God shows for each and every one of us helps us to remember this when were feeling alone.

Kristen said...

Nice post :)
Knowing that God is there for you ALWAYS~ no matter what.... is an awesome thing! He will always be the one constant sure thing in your life, no matter what's going on around you. said...

Amen Sister. You have a very nice reflective blog.