Saturday, June 16, 2007

Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get

I like writing lists. Shopping lists, packing lists, to-do lists, the list is endless. But lately it's felt like there are too many things on the list, and not enough time to think about them, let alone do them. It's about balancing the little things and the big things too, and getting stuff done in the right order so you don't have to do it again a second time.

I haven't really used my diary recently to keep a track of what's happening when, although I am supposed to be using it to keep my self-employed record in (for tax return purposes, so I know what I worked when). I started the year writing in a journal a little bit about each day, but I think I gave up on that around March or April, and that was after having several concerted efforts to fill in the several weeks worth of empty pages. I started off this month blogging every day over all my other blog about the June Challenge we're doing over at OWOA, and yet somehow managed to not find time to write it after about a week. Why am I finding it so hard to keep my resolve about things like this? Why does time keep slipping through my fingers, water running under the bridge and other similar sentiments?

How do I get these two sides of myself to meet on middle ground? What would the middle ground be? I think part of the problem is that it's come to the time of the year (again) when I'm not quite sure what's coming next. Like this time last year I'm leaving my current job at the end of the school year, and things aren't 100% certain after that. I'm better off in some ways because I have an amazing job offer on the table, one which I have accepted, but I'm not totally sure what it will mean as it plays out. Life as know it will not be the same. I'm scared out of my mind, and yet so so excited, oh and the bit of me that likes writing lists is very excited, because there will be a fair few lists needing to be written before I move to take up my new post.
I'm sorry, it's not fair hinting and not saying, and maybe that's why I've been away from my blog for a while. Ok, so I've posted lots of pretty pictures, but don't feel like I've written content for a while. One day soon I may be able to tell...

Oh, and the lorry thing I promised a while back. Basically they have an extra set of wheels so that if they have been driving on soft ground, for example on grass, and the ground has got chewed up and they can't move, they can put down the extra set of wheels to get a grip on some untouched ground, and hopefully be able to move themselves back to solid ground. That sentence was very long and not very clear, but hopefully it will satisfy HP's curiosity.

5 comments:

Steve said...

How interesting.If I have any questions about lorries I know who to come to.

Kathleen said...

It sounds like you have a lot going on in your life right now - enough to keep you VERY busy. If you're like me, you can't function without the lists - if I have no list, I get nothing done. But I can keep lists from getting too overwhelming by limiting the number of items I can put on it each day, and making more lists overall... this comment is unhelpful and is getting too long.

HP said...

Yay thanks Debs for explaining

The King and I said...

Hey Debs. Can totally relate to your post. I feel much the same. So much to do, all the time, and alot of it never gets done. I feel priviledged to know what autumn is bringing for you. I also feel I haven't chatted to you for some time, busy weekend and all that. Also, the photo on my blog was taken by Dave Routledge. Not sure why I found the need to be coy about it last week. Have a week Debs, and hope to see you Weds. Big hug to you xxx

The King and I said...

That was meant to say have a GOOD week. Brain still asleep. x