Thursday, July 31, 2008

Stuck in a moment, and I can't get out if it

Yesterday I met up with a guy from church to talk about how my life is at the moment, and what I should be doing to get on with my life. As far at the conversation went, it was good. I need to get myself motivated and get on with life. Stop just existing and go back to living. That means finding a job that's more than a couple of days a week, and potentially moving out from home again. (I lived away from home the year after university, but when that job came to an end I had to move back to live with my parents for financial reasons)

But somehow it didn't meet the greater itch. I have lots of stuff inside my head that needs to come out. But I play stupid games like the other person has to ask the right questions before I will let it out. That doesn't work, cos how on earth would they know the right questions to ask anyway?! And all that does is leave me hating myself even more and feeling even worse. It's a no win situation. And I'm sick of playing games. I'm gonna try to be real about how I'm feeling, if anyone cares enough to ask.

11 comments:

Holly said...

Aww, Debs! We all feel like that sometimes. We want someone to break down our wall. Don't be afraid to spill if someone asks. People care a lot more than you realize.

Cherries Rock My Socks said...

Well this, my friend, is a great start! **muah**

Mindless Pursuits said...

You'll get there, Debs. Just don't be afraid to be direct and honest. Failure to do either will leave you in the same state you are now as they won't know to ask. Like Cherries said, this is a great start!

carley said...

Small steps.
You will open up when ready x

kim* said...

find someone you really trust and tell them to hear you out. its much better than sharing with strangers.

Margaret said...

Just posting this post seems like a step in the best direction. I wish you luck in your journey. I just found your blog on Etsy, but I will be back to hear you progress.

maryeb said...

Saw you in the etsy forum.
Interesting title and post. I'm glad you shared your thoughts with us. I think the other posters above have some great advice. It can be hard to take a chance and tell someone about what's going on with you.

Pig wot flies said...

I try to ask the right questions.

Elly said...

me too but I guess mums don't count

Debbie said...

BIG hugs.

Love you.

I might see your face in 61 days! How cool is THAT?!

Oh, and you know where I'll be working and that they need staff members . . . just sayin' . . .

Debs said...

BOO!
I am so thinking of looking in to that...